My theme for Advent this year is thankfulness. I am noticing and noting some of the many gifts that I have received. All good gifts are from heaven as the song says, the Bible says. So, I am noting that this Advent.
I am thankful today for this blog. I started it in a dark time when I was lonely. I didn't know what to do in my situation. I didn't really want to share my whole truth. But, I needed an outlet. I needed a place to express hope and joy in the midst of loneliness and pain.
Doing the blog was my joy. If I wasn't entirely honest about my life, I will say that I expressed my hope. I expressed the way I wanted things to be. It was very ironic when my very hopeful words from this blog were used in court to try to prove that I was crazy. I learned to be more careful. I have hidden much of my earlier writing. I quit the blog for a while because it felt like a dangerous thing.
But, I really missed the writing. I missed having a record of the things going on in my life. I write the blog for me. If someone wants to read along, fine. I write for me. I am thankful for this blog. It has carried me through some very hard times.
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