People

 I have had many people in my life who don't have the ability to imagine the feelings of another person. I worry that I might be that way too since I have lived with/loved/ known so many people who seem to live this way. I don't think that I lack empathy, but sometimes I lack the ability to properly express my empathy.  

Hide my feelings.  That is what I have learned throughout my life.  I feel things, feel them deeply, but I don't let myself express these feelings most of the time. I stuff my emotions in a laundry basket, a figurative laundry basket.  When it gets too stuffed, it explodes in a vivid display of inappropriate anger, rage, fear, sadness. It is like the fourth of July.  I hate that, so I keep stuffing.

But, how could I now begin to learn to express feelings?  How could I respond, not react to situations? I am not sure, but I am trying.  It is never too late to become more authentically myself. Is it?