At the rate I am going I will never win the Lottery. I haven't bought a ticket in at least 20 years, so I am confident that unless I change my ways, I will never win the Lottery. But a common expression for me is --if I win the Lottery, I will.....
My sister recently pointed out to me that I don't need to wait to win the imagined Lottery. I should do the things I want to now. She is right and I had already started on that path. I am going to the Holy Land in 2018. I replaced my stinky dishwasher. I have purchased an assortment of furniture that fits my eclectic style.
But there are still things on my to do list. I have plans to replace the lighting in my house. It is old and outdated. I want to change my fireplace to gas, because who wants to clean up ashes? I need a rug for the master bedroom. I want a new stove and vent hood. And I suppose the list could go on and on. But, that is most of the big stuff. I will work on it gradually over time.
I struggle with the consumerism of this. I was not given this life to spend it spending. Balance, I need balance and perspective in my life. I can honor God and have a life of abundance. When I look at the wonders of nature. The leaves on the trees are falling, but look at the show they are putting on before they go. God is exuberant and generous and loving. It is okay to enjoy my life, to be who I am called to be. That is a theme for me, being who I am called to be. And one thing I am not called to be, I suppose, is a winner of the Lottery.