I was thinking the other night about how much I would like to have had the baby I lost and more babies as well. I am a baby person and a little kid person. I was also thinking about how I wish I could cure cancer, especially the cancers that are causing great concern and misery for my friends. And I wish I could solve the rift between my niece and her parents and lots of other things.
I pray about those things. I talk to God about those things. I accept that God knows best. But, sometimes I wish I could have my wishes. I have had a long time to think about this though, and I fully understand why God has not set up life like a market place where deals are made.
How could we make a fair deal with God of the universe? He would always come out ahead. And He does already come out ahead, for my benefit, even if that isn't what I see. No matter how hard I pray and fast and beg, the God of the universe doesn't make deals. That is for the best. I don't live in a world of Let's Make a Deal.