I always wanted to say that, "the game is afoot," like in the old murder mysteries, Sherlock Holmes and all of that. I love a good murder mystery. Anyway, the game is afoot, "it's on" as my school kids would say. What game? What am I talking about? Well, for me today it is Lent. Still early enough to accomplish things, far enough in, that it doesn't seem brand new.
I began this Lent feeling overwhelmed. I had a lot of fear and anxiety. I had to sit in prayer and accept God's Mercy and Love. I had to breathe and remember that anxiety and fear are not from God. Most of the time worry or anxiety only hurts and never helps a situation. I began Lent full of fear, full of dread, full of anxiety. I recognized that I had to somehow deal with these emotions before I could be led closer to Christ in Lent.
I really wasn't even aware that taxes were the thing that was causing me to sweat. But, Sunday as I was about to climb out of my skin with anxiety, I began to recognize that the cause was fear that I wouldn't be able to do the taxes, couldn't find all the paperwork, couldn't figure out what to do. So, I prayed. I loaded in the tax program. I entered in the information and hunted for a couple of additional pieces that I needed. And snip snap it was done. And I don't owe anything. This big mountain of fear I had been avoiding was really not that big of a deal.
I know that for some people this is a stretch to say that God used all of this stuff to teach me to trust. Let go, let God. Something else I learned is that I have to go after my fears, face them head on, let God teach me and lead me through them. Once they are faced, most of the anxiety leaves me. I can move on. Which is what I am doing with Lent--the game is afoot, I am ready to go where God leads me today.