I have a lot of balls in the air. I am not much of a juggler, more of a plodder. But, whether I like it or not, I have a lot of things to juggle. That is part of modern life, or maybe all life on the planet. I run like a hamster on the wheel, spinning and seemingly getting nowhere. One of the things that was clear to me in spiritual direction is that I need to breathe, to relax, to recharge or I am going to burn out.
Specifically, I need to find some friends to do things with. I don't do badly at treating myself or watching television or relaxing a bit. What I am not skilled at is asking people to do things with me. I have people I could ask, but what if they say "no?" What if they really don't want to do anything with me? Awkward, that. My life has taught me to be a loaner.
But, I need to breathe, to exhale, to take a chance and clear the way. I need to find a way, find my way. When I reflect, I am not getting nowhere. I finish some things and new things get added. Juggling isn't all bad. I just need to allow some time to breathe. And some friends to laugh with about it.