I am working daily to keep the philosophy--This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it..... This is my spiritual awakening, I can choose to be a person of gloom and doom and complain about the circumstances of my life, or I can decide that this very moment is the best moment of my life and a gift from God. And which attitude makes me happier?
I suppose this is something I have always known. That I could choose to be happy despite the circumstances. I just wasn't able to do it. I had too much fear and anxiety going on. I was pleasing others, accepting unacceptable behavior, and trying to keep the situations of my life under control so that I wouldn't be blamed or shamed. The realization that God is good, all the time and I don't have to spend my life worrying has been a slow process. The past led me into depression.
Now, everything isn't perfect. The circumstances of my life still have major problems at times. I am trying to get a house ready to sell instead of prepare for Thanksgiving at the place I am living. My car has turned out to be an oil burner and will need to have the engine rebuilt or something. I had hoped to trade it in before 100,000 miles, but that wasn't to be. I want to retire at the end of this school year, but I can't know about whether this will be possible unless or until the court case is settled. And on and on. But, I can choose not to worry about these things. I can choose not to obsess or ponder on the things I have no control over. I can accept that there is a lesson to learn and joy to be found despite the circumstances. Earth is not my final home. I have eternity. I have hope. I can find joy.
Rejoice in the Lord always, again, I say, Rejoice.