Recently when a friend announced an engagement and another friend announced a new grandbaby, I have to admit a felt a moment of envy. The envy didn't really involve jealousy in the sense that I wasn't thrilled for their big announcements. I was completely happy for them. But, the moment of envy involved the tiny cry within--why not me? When is my turn? What fabulous news will I have? Will I ever help plan a wedding or hold a grandbaby? Will I ever take a trip of my dreams or have some wonderful thing happen?
I didn't let myself dwell in that pity party very long. I had a couple a teary minutes and then I moved on. I let myself remember that my day will come or not. I had to swallow the truth that I believe, that I am having the best life God planned for me given the fallen nature of the world, and my own personal attraction to sin and longing for things of this world.
I remembered that I can still enjoy the things I have been given, making baby quilts and toys, dreaming and praying for babies. My life is full and I have lots and lots of lovely people in it. And a few sore spots and wrinkles. Most lives have those things sooner or later.
My purpose in life is not to focus on the things I want and don't have. I need to walk forward with the gifts I have been given and share them with the world for the glory of God.