October. Finally October. I expected to have renewed energy by October. I expected to be sailing along and happier. I had expectations and hope. But, I am still tired and busy and stressed. I feel as though an elephant is sitting upon my head. Weighted down. Waiting.
But, the really good thing about being here in this overwhelmed and tired place is---I know that it can only get better. That someday I will laugh again and the laughter will be sweeter for the times when I couldn't laugh. That renewed energy will come and I will find that joy and hope I seek, that I long for with my whole being.
Knowing that things will get better is the gift of age. A gift from God.