The computers at school have different levels of permissions depending on your login. Students can't change the hard drive or load updates. Teachers can load updates, but there are things we can't do. The tech people have permission to do it all. This year teachers have gained the permission to access Facebook and Youtube with our logins. Permissions can make a big difference in the level or enjoyment and service you can get from your computer.
I have thought about permission a lot lately. I have spent some time in prayer about it. It has come to my attention that I have not given myself permission to be happy. I have let duty and guilt and judgment keep me away from joy. I have been living a life of want and sorrow and fear underneath this exterior of a normal person.
Somebody said something and suddenly it came to me-- I was waiting for permission. I am an adult person. I am employed. I am not responsible for children or even my elderly parent, although sometimes I act as though I am. I have permission to be happy. I have permission to live.
I don't have the words to express this very well, but this is what came to me--Jesus isn't waiting until I lose weight or have grandchildren to love me. God's love is not dependent on whether the floors are swept or all the paper work is filed properly. I am good enough, just as I am.
I feel as though my permissions have been increased. I have permission to be me, just as I am and be loved by God for being me. I am good enough. I am loved by God no matter what.