"Come away by yourselves to a deserted place and rest a while." Mark 6:31
After my active mothering days were over it seemed as though solitude would be easy to find. The demands of a child in the house seem to take precedence over the need to be alone and silent. As I recall, parenting a teenager prepared me for the silent praying times because of all the times I prayed when he wasn't home yet and I worried about where my kid was.
I have had times when I could easily find that silent prayer time and place. During the year of the "long walk", for example, I found that a solitary time to pray. When I pulled the left Achilles tendon and then got the neuroma on the right foot, it seemed that my walking took a sharp decline. That cut into my "deserted place" time.
The problem with "at home" time for me is--there is so much to do. Housework, writing, computer use of various sorts, and now we have cable television again and I can watch all those shows where they tear out walls and re-arrange houses. For me, distractions are great at home.
I haven't developed a good rhythm for Adoration either. An hour makes me tired and itchy. I know that is just something I have to get over. I love to go to Adoration, but after 45 minutes I am usually ready to move around a bit. A priest suggested that I just do the 45 minutes, that it was enough. If I am called to do more, then I will build up the stamina to pray that long. I do so admire those women who blog about the time they spend with Jesus in Adoration. I want to be those women some day. I could complain that my parish chapel isn't open on weekends which is the easy time for me to go to Adoration. But, I wonder if I would go, if the chapel was open.
This Lent, one of my goals is to find that deserted place in my life where I can regularly go to pray. I intend to spend more time at Adoration, but I also need to develop that solitude and discipline to really spend time in deep prayer. I need to find that desert place and go there again and again.